As Time Goes On

As Time Goes On

The days have gone by
The nights have dragged on
My life has continued to each dawn

I wondered so much
Would I make it through?
All the hurt and pain

The time has gone on
And continues to each day
Each day bringing
New decisions and challenges
To this life of mine

I tell myself so often
I am doing great
But then
As the time has gone on
I find myself in some great debates

Debating and wishing
Wishing as time goes on
That all could have been so different

Wondering all the why’s and what if’s
What if it all could have been so different?
Why as this time goes on
Do I still miss him with all my heart?

What is it that I miss?
As time goes on
The man that I loved so much
Is not now here
As time goes on

The days are passing
With each day bringing
A new start
A new start for me

It all could have been so different
I tell myself
He claims it was me
All about me

I have doubted myself
As time goes on
So many minutes and hours have been spent
Trying to figure out
What was wrong with me?

I must realize
Even though there is still those moments spent
As time goes on
Wishing he was here with me
That it all could be so differently

I reach within
And tell myself
Those days are gone by
I gave it my best try

It was not about me
Problems and heartache take two
It takes effort as each day goes on
Of two to make it all work

I really do know I gave it my all
And now as time goes on
I have to continue to take care of me

To think of where I can be
And where I can go
With this life of mine
As time goes on

I will continue to look ahead
And not look back
For looking back is history
History that has been lived and wrote
History where lessons had been learned

So I take that knowledge
As time goes on
And continue to make for myself
A brand new start
In this life of mine

As time goes on
I reach within
To find happiness and peace
To find and know me

--Robin Walters, November 29, 2005

Robin Walters is an alcoholic relationship survivor and writer in New York state. Robin still longs to be a school teacher, but now satisfies that longing by sharing her life experiences in the hope that her lessons will lighten the load for others. She may be contacted at robin@empoweredrecovery.com. Read more of her writings at www.EmpoweredRecovery.com/robin .