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It has
been a whirlwind of a couple of weeks. I have been busy getting ready to
move to a new home; a home that will bring new beginnings and new
memories.
While
packing, I got very frustrated with all the junk that I had collected over
the years.
I just
did not understand why I had saved some of the stuff I saved.
I finally told myself it was time to get rid of the stuff. I
started by going to the kitchen and getting the garbage bags. I started in
one room and just started throwing the junk into the bag.
I took one room at a time. It was an overwhelming process that took
some time to achieve.
As the
music was blaring and I was busy ridding myself of things that I no longer
needed to carry on to my new home, it made me realize and think about the
emotional baggage I still carry around. I am now forty-four years old.
There have been many events that have happened in my life. With those
events there are memories and feelings that have been stored in my brain.
Since
finding Empowered Recovery over a year ago, I have released a huge portion
of that emotional baggage. Has it been easy? No. Is it worth it? Yes! If
we truly take the time to explore our inner self and work on disposing of
the negativity that still rents free space in our head, our lives will be
much better. We will be able to see more clearly. We will be able to think
more clearly.
The
longer we carry around this baggage in our heads the longer we are sitting
on a luggage rack of life continuing to wander and search for where we are
to be.
How do
I do this you may ask? Seek help. I did. I found Empowered Recovery. The
founder Doug Kelley wrote to me in an email in August of 2005:
You
are enough. Wrap your world around you and those who love you (but only
in a healthy way, of course).
You
are smart and successful. Believe it. Accept it.
I have
learned it all starts with me believing in me. We are all smart and successful in our own way. Being
involved in an alcoholic relationship drains the life out of us and leaves
us with unwanted emotional baggage.
Stay
focused. Be honest with yourself. Do not consider yourself a failure. We
do not make mistakes, we learn lessons.
In learning those lessons, we can avoid making wrong choices in our
future life.
Do not
beat up on yourself. We are all human.
We all want to be loved. However, I have learned it all starts with
loving me first. We will be
stuck in the rut if we do not rid ourselves of the baggage we continue to
carry around.
You may
choose to seek the help of a therapist. You may choose to seek the
assistance of good friends and family. When we are lost in the fog, others
can see much more clearly for us.
As
the days goes by and the big moving day moves closer, I continue to
dispose of the physical baggage as well as the emotional baggage I have
carried around for so long.
Each
day brings a new beginning for all of us. It is our choice how we will
spend that day.
Do
you want to spend it being wrapped up in baggage from the past or would
you much rather spend it feeling energized, happy and loving yourself? It
is your choice.
--Robin
Walters, April 6, 2006 |
